Mera pahla Pyar… (Part-2)
October 13, 2017
Lesbo…
November 13, 2017

Hello friends .. my Self sanjh… im 19 years old, main dikhne me bohot achi lagti hu aplog cute bhi kah sakte ho. mera ghar rishikesh me hai. papa ek army offer hai … meri life abhi tak bohot difficult rahi hai. Friends ho ya relative mene jispe bharosa kiya, jise bhi apna samjha hamesha usi ne mujhe dhokha diya. Main ek ladke se bhot pyar krti thi bina ghar walo ki parwah kiye maine use behad pyar kiya. Uske liye ghar walo ki mar bhi khayi. bohot logo se bura bhala suna, Lekin shayad wo mujhse itna pyar nhi karta tha. Hamari relation sirf meri vajah se chal rahi thi. main hamesa ladai hone par apni galti maan leti thi. Is tarah hamara relationship sirf 4 year tak chala. Main use to apna sab kuch man bethi thi lekin wo mujhe apne pero ki dhul ke siwa shayad hi kuch or samjhta ho. 4th year me main usse thoda dur hone lagi thi kyu ki meri life me koi bohot hi accha freind aaya tha. Jo mujhe faizan(jisse main pyar karti thi) ki taraf abuse nahi karta tha meri kadar karna use ata tha.. shayad yahi wajah thi ki usne dhire dhire mujhe meri value samjhai.. uska naam abhishek tha. Usne mujhe bataya pyar ka matlab sirf sath rahna nahi ek dusre ke liye jina bhi hota hai. Abhishek meri life me ban ke to sirf ek dost aya tha. jisne meri life hi change kar di. Me 12th pass hokar collage me gayi wahi par meri mulakat abhishek se hui. Hum shuru me ek class me ho kar bhi bilkul anjane the. Fir usne mjhe notic kiya. Mujhe uska is tarah dekhna shuru me bohot ajib lagta tha… samjh nahi ata tha uski taraf dekhu ya nahi kyu ki har waqt to wo mujhe hi dekh raha hota tha. Uski taraf dekh kar main khud hi sharma jati thi. Fir dhire dhire study ke naam par hamari bate start hui. Lekin uske dost hamesha hame tang karte the.. wo jese hi mujhse bat karne aye to piche se uske dost shor karne lagte the jiski wajah se bohot mushkil se hi 2 ,4 bar hamari theek se baat ho pai thi. Lekin usne mujhe sirf 1 week me hi apne dil ki baat bata di. Mene use mana kar diya kyu ki us waqt main kisi or se bhot pyar karti thi. Pata nahi wo mera pyar tha ya use kabhi chhod kar na jane ki meri zid jisne meri jindgi ko itni badhaal bana diya tha.
Maine use freind bana liya kyu ki wo mjhe bhot accha lagta tha. Wo bhot pyari pyari bate krta tha. Fir hum dheere dheere hamari dosti gehri hoti gayi. Main use dost ki tarah treet karti thi, lekin yeah bhi janti thi ki wo mujhe kitna chahta hai. Or yeah sab uska chahra khud hi bata deta tha. Jis din main na aau college wo pura din udas betha rahta tha yeah bat mujhe meri friends bataya karti thi. Yeah sun ke mujhe bhi bohot bura lgta tha ki abhishek meri wajah se udas feel kar raha hai.
Uska mere liye itna pareshan hona.. mujhe samjhate huye pyar se babu kahna mujhe bohot acha lagta tha. Main apne dil ki harek bat abhishek se share karti thi or wo bhi..
Hum din rat bass isi tarah bat karte the wo bilkul mujhe kisi baby ki tarah treet karta tha. Bar bar use mujhe is kadar pyar se pukarna… kabhi kabhi to uske pyar ki wajah se mujhe khud par pyar ane lagta tha… main bar bar khud ko aine me niharne lagti or khud se yahi puchti thi koi mujhe is kadar chah sakta hai mene socha bhi nahi tha..

Agar subah uska good morning ka massage na padu to pareshan ho jati thi or use khub daat lagati thi lekin usne kabhi mujhpe gussa nahi kiya. Hamari bate dhire dhire raat raat bhar honi shuru ho gayi. Main ab yahi wait karti thi ki kab faizan so jaye or me abhishek se apne pure din ki bate share karu. Kyu ki wo mujhe samjhta tha.
Lekin ek din mere boyfriend faizan ko abhishek ke bare me pata chal gya ki me abhishek se itna close hu or apne dil ki har bat use share karti hu. Maine faizan ko Bohot samjhane ki koshish ki kyu ki us wakq main faizan ko khone ke naam se bhi darti thi. Ab maine abhishek se bate karna kam kar diya tha lekin usne meri care karna kabhi kam nahi kiya. Main kesa bhi behave karu wo har haal me mera khayal rakhta tha…
Lekin pata nahi mere or abhishek ke rishte ko kiski najar lagne lagi thi.. kisne use kya kaha kya samjhaya main yeah nahi janti. Lekin ab abhishek ka mere liye behavior change ho gaya. Wo mujh par gussa karne laga tha. Uski ankho me mere liye pyar ab bhi wahi hai. Lekin pata nahi kyu ab wo use chupane ki koshish karta hai. Main kbhi use gusse me jawab nahi deti because i know mujhpe gussa karke use mere se kahi jyada bura feel hota hai. Main ab faizan ke sath nahi hu lekin ab mere pass pahle wala mera abhishek bhi nahi hai. Main tut chuki hu bohot koshish karti hu ki abhishek fir se mera pahle wala abhi ban jaye lekin ab wo bohot badal chuka hai. Na jane kyu itna bura banne ki koshish karta hai.
Please abhi.. agar tum yeah story pad rahe ho to please wapas aa jao mere pahle wale abhi ban.. kar… Please….!

3 Comments

  1. Sanjay says:

    Sanjh bura mat manna but galti tumhari hai. Tumhi ne use nahi samjha Jo tumhe pyar karta tha

  2. Tumhe samjhna chahiye tha pyar bar bar dastak nahi deta sanjh

  3. Amar says:

    Nice story.

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